Journal August 17, 2025
Seriously! Who is in charge here? This is one of the shots during yet another unexpected stop on the way home. Our two day trip although relaxed and unhurried had many stops and all in all we have covered over 500 miles. Day 2 was more intense (at least for me). A morning walk on […]
Journal 08/09/2025
Inch by inch, day by day I am getting back to live. I went into the water for the first time yesterday, a month after surgery. I had to wear a belt and I realized how much I relied on my arms when swimming. Not using my arms is difficult. I swim slower and it […]
Journal August 5, 2025
Let me start with this, August 4 meant I went into the 9th month of this interesting and exciting journey. We started the journey together – me and my cancer, and citing my favorite Harry Potter again, I no longer feel possessed by Voldemort, sorry TNBC. So I guess I am luckier than professor Quirrell […]
Journal August 2, 2025
And I kinda thought I was off the hook. Yea, keep dreaming, girl! Friday was my first post-op Keytruda day and I nagged a double dose. I thought of Keytruda as pretty much extremely well tolerated when I was getting it with other chemo and worrying about side effects of that chemo. I had blood […]
Journal 07/27/2025
I love looking at old black and white pictures. Gen Z kids grown up in digital age have little idea of the feel of the photo. I think they mostly perceive iPhone format. As long as it fits the screen. Generation X such as myself coming from the former Soviet Union have lots of black […]
Journal 07/24/2025
One would think it’s about time I stop the posts – after all I am cancer free at the moment. What else do I have to say. Well, I just changed direction that’s all. I am on the road to recovery and if anyone thinks that’s piece of cake, think again. I have had a […]
Journal 07/22/2025
Yep, it’s been 34 years since I landed in LA. Disheveled, exhausted and pregnant. Shocked (Where are the skyscrapers?!), puzzled (how did they put so many lamps on the road? (Reflection lights on the freeway). My trip was long – Riga-Moscow-Dublin-Havana-Mexico-City-LA and I have not made a trip back since. A 7 kilo bag, 2 […]
Journal 07/20/2025
Here is what I have learned in the last 8 months – all the websites with smiling happy women undergoing chemotherapy or mastectomy and happily using all kinds of clothing, pillows, belts, etc – that’s B.S. if you had surgery there are not enough wedges in the world to make you comfortable. You still wake […]
Journal 07/09/2025
This image of the sky illuminated by the moon peaking just a touch from behind the could is my mom’s. She took it yesterday when I was already asleep. As for me – it is day #2. I feel that I had enough lounging in bed. So early in the morning I decide to go […]
Journal 07/07/2025
Whoever posts postop photos of smiling happy happy faces it is completely bull. I am home. It is difficult. Every breath, move and bump on the road. I got to OR at 2 pm today and was woken up around 7. Last thing I remember is ceiling lamps in the OR and then propofol kicked […]