Journal September 21, 2025
We are celebrating Rosh Hashanah tomorrow evening. It is a start of the New Year in Judaism. We reflect on the year past and just like any Jewish Holiday we eat and then we pray. However, this time of the year the prayer is very special – we ask for forgiveness of all our transgressions […]
Journal August 30, 2025
This is not the moon but rather the sun peaking out from the clouds. Typical Los Angeles mornings – cloudy early on followed by blazing heat till the end of the day. But even the cloudy mornings are beautiful when the sun has a halo in the clouds. My one major achievement for the week […]
Journal August 15, 2025
Yesss!!! This is the first time I am spending the night not at home in ten months! I am in Moonstone Beach (Cambria, CA). I am taking a road trip. First time in many months when I am not wearing a mask, wig, or a beanie. I am breaking so many rules today! I am […]
Journal 08/09/2025
Inch by inch, day by day I am getting back to live. I went into the water for the first time yesterday, a month after surgery. I had to wear a belt and I realized how much I relied on my arms when swimming. Not using my arms is difficult. I swim slower and it […]
Journal August 2, 2025
And I kinda thought I was off the hook. Yea, keep dreaming, girl! Friday was my first post-op Keytruda day and I nagged a double dose. I thought of Keytruda as pretty much extremely well tolerated when I was getting it with other chemo and worrying about side effects of that chemo. I had blood […]
Journal 07/27/2025
I love looking at old black and white pictures. Gen Z kids grown up in digital age have little idea of the feel of the photo. I think they mostly perceive iPhone format. As long as it fits the screen. Generation X such as myself coming from the former Soviet Union have lots of black […]
Journal 07/20/2025
Here is what I have learned in the last 8 months – all the websites with smiling happy women undergoing chemotherapy or mastectomy and happily using all kinds of clothing, pillows, belts, etc – that’s B.S. if you had surgery there are not enough wedges in the world to make you comfortable. You still wake […]
Journal 07/06/2025
This night has finally come. The night before surgery. I am writing it at midnight and probably should have dated the post 07/07/25 but I am still not finished with the day. I often thought what do people think and do the night before? What had great commanders thought about before going into major battles […]
Journal 07/04/2025
For some reason I do not really like 4th of July Holiday. But just like any kid I love fireworks. I have seen 4th of July fireworks many times and it seems I can never tire of them. The day has become difficult because fireworks make my dogs nervous and there are not enough calming […]
Journal 07/01/2025
It is really not a great picture in a sense of execution but I had very little choice at 6:45 AM with my dog in tow. However, when I see something like that it makes my day. In a way I feel similar to the rabbit – ready to jump into unknown. Although to give […]